I hate this so much.
There isn’t one part of me that that finds anything appealing about where we are right now.
Shut in from friends and family and the accompanying presence of constant fear when we do step outside to get some groceries or fresh air.
This sucks. Actually, this fucking sucks.
And I especially hate all of these commercials showcasing how close we can all be over a Zoom call.
There isn’t a single appealing thing about all of this. It’s a damn nightmare and we need to treat it as such. We’re in a waking nightmare every day.
I’d say I’m sorry for being so negative here, but if you can stay with me for a minute, I’m hoping to show you something.
This sucks. And I’m yearning, I’m ACHING to get back to some semblance of the life we all knew before we woke up to this nightmare.
I think hiding behind fake happiness and pretending like a video chat is going to somehow make this suck less is as foolish as we can be. Yeah, lets celebrate this nightmare. Sorry, I don’t see it like that.
I see it like this.
This is a nightmare. One of the worst things society as a whole has faced in a very long time. And there is actually and absolutely no way around the SUCK that this truly is.
So, it sucks. We’ve established that. Stop trying to think it doesn’t suck.
THIS! SUCKS!
Has my opinion penetrated your psyche yet? Can you feel how tremendously fed up I am with this situation and even more fed up with the fake optimism floating around it?
“But Mark, you always write about the good found in the bad, the positive… what is this?”
This is real. This, once again, sucks. But thank God, it won’t last forever. And when we finally get to that time when we’re outside of this SUCK, lets celebrate it. Lets really live again. Because then we’ll understand the meaning of it. We’ll understand the meaning of it because it was taken away from us. Stop celebrating right now. Right now is not meant to be celebrated in the way it’s being celebrated. It’s as bad as it can be. Let that be what it is. But once this terrible cloud of TERRIBLE finally shifts away from us, THEN celebrate. And celebrate like you’ve never celebrated before. Because that’s when you’ve been given your life back.
Hug every mother fucker you can get your hands on.
What I am saying is really simple. People are constantly trying to avoid pain, ignore it, play it down, pretend like it isn’t there. What I’m saying here is to lean into the pain. Fully embrace it for all that it is because when it leaves, and leave it shall, you will experience the fullness of joy in the way it is meant to be experienced.
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